December 2012 Archive

54 books for 2012

Halfway through the year I decided to keep a list of all the books I was reading for 2012 and I’m excited to share them with you now! I did attempt to rate the books, but as I discovered throughout the year, rating with a simple 5 star system is quite unfair so I’ve decided not to include those in the post. I already have a more in depth rating system created for next year including my thoughts on the book from both a reader and a writer’s perspective. I have gone ahead and highlighted the books that I enjoyed the most. Please feel free to ask any questions/email me on any of these books, I would be more than happy to share my thoughts :)

Cheers to a wonderful 2013 coming up full of many new wonderful reads!

1. Exit Strategy (Nadia Stafford 1) – Kelley Armstrong
2. Nadia Stafford 2 – Kelley Armstrong
3. Bzrk- Michael Grant (Audiobook)
4. 13 days to Midnight- Patrick Carman (Audiobook)
5. Dead Witch Walking (The Hollows 1)- Kim Harrison (Audiobook)
6. The Hollows 2- Kim Harrison (Audiobook)
7. The Hollows 3- Kim Harrison (Audiobook)
8. The Hollows 4- Kim Harrison (Audiobook)
9. Chrestomanci 1 – Diana Wynne Jones
10. The Night Circus- Erin Morgenstern (Audiobook & Reading) Best book I’ve read in many years
11. The Rope- Nevada Barr
12. Dark Eden- Patrick Carman
13. Before I Fall- Lauren Oliver
14. The Only Alien on the Planet- Kristin Randle
15. The Sky is Everywhere- Jandy Nelson
16. Touch of Power- Maria V. Snyder
17. Ship Breaker- Paolo Bacigalupi (Audiobook)
18. Fat Vampire- Adam Rex
19. The Summoning- Kelley Armstrong
20. If I stay- Gayle Forman (Audiobook)
21. Feed- M. T. Anderson
22. Seraphina- Rachel Hartman
23. The Awakening- Kelley Armstrong
24. Drowned Cities- Paolo Bacigaloupi
25. The Hundred Thousand Kingdoms (Inheritance Trilogy)- N.K. Jemisin
26. Hex Hall- Rachel Hawkins
27. Clockwork Angel- Cassandra Clare
28. Clockwork Prince- Cassandra Clare (Audiobook)
29. Everneath- Brodi Ashton
30. Hourglass- Myra McEntire
31. The Broken Kingdoms- N.K. Jemisin
32. Hate List- Jennifer Brown
33. The Red Necklace- Sally Gardner
34. Daughter of Smoke and Bone- Laini Taylor
35. Incarnate (Newsoul)- Jodi Meadows
36. Blood Magic (The Blood Journals)- Tessa Gratton
37. Hellhound on his Trail- Hampton Sides
38. Cornerstone- Misty Provencher
39. The Age of Miracles: A Novel- Karen Thompson Walker
40. Legend- Marie Lu
41. Beautiful Creatures- Kami Garcia & Margaret Stohl
42. First Frost (Mythos Academy)
43. My Soul to take (Soul Screamers)
44. Grave Mercy- Robin LaFevers
45. Red Glove- Holly Black
46. Hale Maree- Misty Provencher
47. Going Bovine- Libba Bray
48. Don’t Breathe a Word- Jennifer McMahon
49. Along for the Ride- Sarah Dessen
50. Heist Society- Ally Carter
51. The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking) Patrick Ness
52. Gone Girl- Gyllian Flynn
53. Shadow and Bone- Leigh Bardugo
54. Darkness Becomes Her- Kelly Keaton

Currently reading: Paranormalcy- Kiersten White

(I should also add that a few of the above were DNF’s, but I still decided to include them on the list ;) )

What were your favorite reads this year? Did I miss reading a book in 2012 that I need to pick up in 2013?

In Which We Are Afraid of Pain

Not physical pain (though that is quite scary too), but the kind that clutches your heart and squeezes ever tighter until you’re sure you will crumple up and never figure out how to stretch back into a real person.

That pain. The weighted pain of depression. The kind that comes from having to watch my Pig get sick and deteriorate and then die (we did not though have any bad days, not even up until the end and for that I am very grateful).

I have wondered lately why I feel like it’s not okay to experience this particular pain. Don’t get me wrong, first and foremost it’s uncomfortable, it hurts! But why do I feel like it’s wrong to say I feel this way. Perhaps it’s the same reason of why I don’t tell most people I write. Not a single person at my workplace knows I write or knows that I’ve been struggling this past month. And I have to wonder if this is because it’s at the deepest part of me. Writing is in my heart, which is the same place this hurt is birthed from.

Or perhaps it’s because if I whisper to someone that I’m feeling terribly empty, it gives them the opportunity to say that I’m hurting doesn’t matter. But it does. Very much so.

Last week my lovely, lovely friend Lauren Spieller said this to me during a particularly rough patch of doubt: You’re a good writer with good ideas. You’re suffering right now, and it’s making you doubt yourself. Don’t do that. I immediately cried and then posted it on Twitter. That bit of wisdom was retweeted and favorited some 25 times. Incredible (my tweets are never so popular). But that was.

Why?

I think it’s because we’re often afraid. At least I’m afraid of the pain, of the discomfort, of sitting around feeling the awful feels, waiting to ride out the storm. I never want to wait at the bottom of that very large, very difficult-to-climb-out-of-hole. I’m not that patient. I don’t like that pain.

I think when I admitted I was feeling especially crummy- other people related, other people needed that. They needed the don’t-doubt-yourself message, even if they too were going through something awful.

I’ve mourned Pig this week, but it wasn’t until Sunday that I allowed myself to stay on the couch all day, to really cry and eat a boatload of ice cream, and admit to myself how absolutely terrible I’ve been feeling. And to tell myself that it was perfectly alright.

In fact, I’ve had this post ready to publish for two days. Today I’m telling myself it’s okay to admit I’ve been feeling…oh-so-terrible.

Anyway guys, if you’ve been feeling like this too: be proud of yourselves. Keep working. Keep writing or doing whatever your passion may be. Feel like crap if that’s what you need. It’s what I needed Sunday, so it’s what I did and today I feel just a bit better.

(And of course a shout out to the lovely Lauren, Charlie, and Cat for piecing me together at times over the past two months with their endless conversation, bad jokes, and bunny spam.)

(Also, I’ve been thinking a lot about spirits and the after life, partly because my WIP is about this, but also because of Pig and the shooting in CT. If anyone wants to idea-churn/talk/anything-much-at-all, come find me on twitter or gchat.)

(Aaaand lastly, check out this post if you’d like to see what I’m reading over Christmas to help keep me in good spirits :) )

Her Heart’s Secret Wish

Hey guys! I’m thrilled to be helping launch Juliana Haygert’s book, Her Heart’s Secret Wish. The past days, and past month, have been full of turmoil for my family and it seems like everything I’ve been reading has been a bit on the dark and dreary side. I’m beyond excited to have found Haygert’s  book- it seems like the perfect read for Christmastime and is on the happier side. I hope you all go pick it up too!
Her Heart’s Secret Wish by Juliana Haygert
Publisher: Decadent Publishing
Release Date: 12/12/12
Genre: NA contemporary romance
Length: 13,000 words
With a renowned reputation as a player, she had everything figured out…
Twenty-year-old college student, Natasha is the life of every party and the reason behind many celebrations. The easiest girl on campus has all guys at her feet and more than a few in her bed.
…until he came into the game…
Having entered the academic world by chance, Professor Jason Stone is surprised to find one of his young students a huge temptation. The infamous Natasha has caught his attention. But is there more to her than meets the eye?
…and changed the rules.
As their unexpected friendship grows, so does their attraction to each other. When Jason’s Christmas plans are canceled and he ends up at the same party as Natasha, sparks flare, destroying the safe zone around them. Will they figure out how to break through their self-imposed barriers to be together, or lose one another forever?

Decadent Publishing | Goodreads
About the Author:
Juliana is a Brazilian girl living in Connecticut.
She would love to be Wonder Woman, Cheetara, Elektra, Buffy, Phoebe, She-ra, Rose, Korra, Cornelia, a blood elf shadow priest, and other various kick-ass female from books, comics, TV series, movies, and games, but she settles for—the less exciting but equally gratifying life—a wife, mother, friend and a writer. Her heroines are like the ones cited above and she also writes about the heroes who drive them crazy—and occasionally hot.
Since her first stories, she wrote about 20-something year old protagonists, and today she’s part of NA Alley, a blog dedicated to New Adult.
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